Saturday, October 07, 2006 @ 8:46 PM
im getting very sian-ed by my batch
okayyyy
it is now like separated
and some of us are hi and bye friends
some don even bother to reply me
when i wan to ask them out to gym or kayaking
WTH.
some replied me.
excuses and excuses.
RAHHHHHH
why why why!
why is this happenning to our batch
why isit not the next batch
NO NO NO NO !
people are so much closer to their classes and not odac
this is a big part of it.
WHY WHY WHY WHY!
im getting very agitated
just what can i do to help!
im trying very hard already la!
initiating to start meeting up in the morning before assembly
organising activities after sch (sometimes) to play ball and all
organising the lantern festival
organising the chalet.
organise dinners after trainigns.
there are many people who makes an effort to join us.
like please. this only makes up less than one third of the batch.
and they are always the same few people
and i can expect that the same few people would not be present at any non-official odac trainings.
just the same few.
come on la.
are we or am i that irritating or repelling.
im just so sad that some people said that they would feel very happy if they could stop coming to trainings when i asked them how would they feel if we had handed over
WAH.
PLEASE.
we are odacians.
where is the odac spirit.
we are just so different from other batches.
RAHH RAHH
im so jealous of the other batch.
and i wan others to be jealous of our batch
but that's the sad thing.
that we cant
no one is ever going to be jealous of our batch.
for it. .. .. ..
fill in the blanks.
yeah im just releasing every thing out of my mind now
at the same time. im controlling my tears to stop it from coming out
i dunno why i am doing this.
for the same few people who are reading my blog
sorry if this post had affected u.
or it didnt cheer u up as it suppose to have been.
i just wish that i wasnt that emotional.
i just wish i was still like who i am just a few months back.
i just wish
i just wish
what's the point of me wishing
the only possible solution is for everyone to make an effort to contribute
rahhh
rahh
rahhh
rahh
dont tink this is just a place for me to vent my anger
cuz im not venting my anger
im just sad.
