Sunday, December 17, 2006 @ 12:22 AM
i was actually feeling alright this morning and afternoon.
i dunno what had happened but alot things had been strucking me.
i promised myself that i wont get upset over these matters ...
i've convinced myself that it doesnt matter . BUT IT DOES!
"doesnt really matter" hurt me quite abit.
it really does matter ALOT
what are we.
why are we in here for.
to separate ourselves?
to really enjoy life to the fullest? maximise life. be happy every day.
or to challenge ourselves. fit in with the rest. have life with a sin/cos curve
ups and downs .
so what are we going to do now.
continue the old way.
and like what someone said. let the gap open even wider?
nothing is going to be solved without us doing anything.
sometimes i wondered. have i really tried. to be neutral. to blend in. to join the others!
i strongly believe that they are all misunderstandings.
clear it out and they becoming understandings.
understanding each other. yes. that's it.
HOW!
misunderstandings dont stand alone. they are accumulated. one will form some impression in the mind and thus further create misunderstandings!
we shall try. or maybe say I MUST TRY.
everybody must play a part. yea so we must play our part too!
I MUST TRY!
no point sitting in front of my comp and be double sided!
i wished i had not said some stuffs that made me double side.
it makes me feel cheapo like a doubleside printed paper.
but that's me. mind VS heart.
who will win.
i dunno
i seriously have no idea.
anw i think i've talked enough. im really very tired of this.
and tired.
shen ah. jiu jiu wo bah.
good night!
