Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 12:26 AM
the happy times were gone..
it's been some time since im feeeling so emo and uncertain.... :(
last few weeks were spent happily! can't recall a time when i hide in the middle of the night and cry.
boohooo.... stupid momomonster is out again!
been busy with xphysique lately..
and im actually very very happy working for xphysique!
despite the late nights that we didnt even get to sleep.. (ok we did sleep abit in the morning)
:(
now im feeeling very lost without it... sudden change of schedule...
my life is so empty suddenly.... didn't even plan for this :(
now im trying to pack myself with activities... organising stuffs again...
once again, i was excited! but looking at the few response that i had... im disheartened again...
i really need friends who supports me, to keep my spirits high again.... friends are my source of energy.
i am always afraid of what people think of me... as an over-enthusiastic person, attention-seeker ... :( this is always what i felt when people start to get more shou with me... :(
now im supposed to get ready and prepare myself for SU17...
and the feeling is really very different from the same time last year!
now that i know so many more people, and know so much more about people...
im dreading the camp actually.
dreading the world bonding.
dreading to have sleepless nights.
how i wish that i knew none of them at all, back to where i've started for SU16..
i didnt even know my BL/ABLs existed till we splitted up for world bonding...
things would have been much easier...
i miss su16 seaworld!! BLEH
blehh now im saying stuffs in a very disorganised manner... just wanna get things out of my mind... it's blobbing about in my mind.. out out out of my mind!
so many things to settle, yet i don't know how to go about doing it...
IM FEEEELING SAD AND CONFUSED AND LOST AND EMPTY.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
